Lost.

Even though things in life are good and I have nothing to stress about, I still feel like I need someone to love and love me back.

Its the worst thing to see my friends and even random couples just so happy and I go to sleep sad evernight.

I just want to be happy.

So yeah!

I might be auditioning for some Disney shows but idk yet. I would have to be relocated and all this other stuff. I think i should do it because i haven’t been able to find any jobs here where i live so why not ya know. I might not be attending dance theater of Harlem so i have t have a back up for the summer and that might be the only thing that i have to do because i refuse to be bored and not loving my summer.

I’m just so confused about what i’m going to do. I think if i’m anywhere but Baltimore for the summer i will be happier. Even if im not in NY for DTH i still want to go there for the summer because i still have a college audition and its NY come on now! lol

My Party was AMAZING!!!

Eventho people kinnda disrespected my house it was great. And they wont party with me anymore.

But i had soooo much fun!! I had me a drink. I was flying but i didnt even leave the ground.

Cute people were there ;)

Lord some people were going fuckin crazy and had to go.

People tried to do shit in my room and that pissed me the fuck off. Your were sapose to be enjoying my party not trying to do shit like that. For all that you could have just left never came tf??? Yall are sapose to be my friends but ur trying to do shit doing my party IN MY ROOM??/ I dont even do shit in my room lol

At then end of the night i was happy!!!

Part 2 of my pary next month!!

•Sigh•

I want to be loved.
I want to be happy.
I want a lover to tell me goodnight.
I want to wake up to a text saying "good morning love you baby have a good day."
I want alot.

:)

I love that now that im alone, im getting to know myself. Its the best feeling.

Music

I love music. I listen to different kinds but mainly opera, musical theater, and some r&b/jazz.

I just love opera eventho I dont want a career in opera. I respect the people that perform it well because its such a complicated career. Opera is such a joy to listen to.

Now musical theater has become my love in my music choices because it more free and doesnt have as much structure as opera and I can dance and sing :)

Random.

So alot has been going on with. Some good and some bad. Thats life i guess and no one has a perfect one.
I was dumped by some one i loved dear who claimed to have fallin out of love with me. Eventho i have come to terms with the brake up I dought that was the real reason but life goes on i guess.
That really hurt me because i didnt see it comeing and it seem like a easy way out for them.

I got into Dance Theater of Harlem for there 6 week summer intensive. With no scholarship =(.
But i had found a place that gives schalarships for performers but that hasnt been going good because the guy has been giving me the run around so i think im going to end up paying with my own money.
My show at the Arena Players called Rebal without a cause opend and it started off rough but it is now going great and it is closing soon. I just love my cast! =)

I also had got a job teaching dance to elementary school kids but the principle at the school has been acting pretty shady to us so who knows where that is going.

Ive been trying to get my id and bank card forever it seems like. I had got my bank card back before but lost it again. Dumb me.

I feel like i need to leave home because i need to become independent. But before i do that i need to get a stable job first which is not going well.

To end off on a good note i have a audition for AMDA in July =)